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A Year On
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I signed into here for the first time in ages, literally ages. With the one mind-set to delete everything embarassing from my page, to maybe start this place again.
I decided to start at the journal section, and holy shit, I was maybe the largest loser to maybe ever brace the living planet. Literally, I was the definition of scene-2012 LOL XD phase kid. It pained me to read my writing, and it pained me that I actually posted so much stuff like that, usually starting with 'YO!' or 'RAWR!'.
I then went to the art section, and deleted everything I could, deviantART you got some bugs with deleting, and all i can say is - I get why I didn't further my art education, the stuff I produced was not art. It was, and still is, pointlessly crap squiggles and overly smudged horses.
I plan on semi-restarting my page, instead of filling it with pointlessly annoying journals and 'manipulations', I plan on putting up stuff I am actually proud of. I won't fire up any crap I made at like 4 AM when I was battling sleep, I will fire up crap I actually spend time improving and editing. I won't just make journals to be like 'LOL I'M SO RANDOM, POTATOES XDDD', I will make them if I think I need to, kind of like this one.
The reason I kind of left without meaning to was because I feel like I really grew up. I met new people and matured with them, leaving behind all my past hobbies - I changed, if you will. I got really bored and fed up with how I used to be and decided it is time to change myself for the better. Hence, me meeting these new people.
The feeling of changing yourself really is great, it uplifts you and makes you see the world differently. I am by no way close to who and what I want to be, but I am getting there. I set goals for myself, like not live on my laptop in my room and to get fit and I can happily say I have accomplished part of that. Even just accomplishing parts of my goals makes me feel better, it makes me see the world how it truly is - not how I imagined it, not dark, cruel and harsh.
I won't be here all the time, probably won't be here most of the time, but anyway... I just wanted to have a small say here, nearly like the old times. Very like the old times, but with much better grammar and hopefully less annoying.
by the way, if you wanna hit me up on tumblr, i am blaver.tumblr.com and my tumblr is a happy place
I decided to start at the journal section, and holy shit, I was maybe the largest loser to maybe ever brace the living planet. Literally, I was the definition of scene-2012 LOL XD phase kid. It pained me to read my writing, and it pained me that I actually posted so much stuff like that, usually starting with 'YO!' or 'RAWR!'.
I then went to the art section, and deleted everything I could, deviantART you got some bugs with deleting, and all i can say is - I get why I didn't further my art education, the stuff I produced was not art. It was, and still is, pointlessly crap squiggles and overly smudged horses.
I plan on semi-restarting my page, instead of filling it with pointlessly annoying journals and 'manipulations', I plan on putting up stuff I am actually proud of. I won't fire up any crap I made at like 4 AM when I was battling sleep, I will fire up crap I actually spend time improving and editing. I won't just make journals to be like 'LOL I'M SO RANDOM, POTATOES XDDD', I will make them if I think I need to, kind of like this one.
The reason I kind of left without meaning to was because I feel like I really grew up. I met new people and matured with them, leaving behind all my past hobbies - I changed, if you will. I got really bored and fed up with how I used to be and decided it is time to change myself for the better. Hence, me meeting these new people.
The feeling of changing yourself really is great, it uplifts you and makes you see the world differently. I am by no way close to who and what I want to be, but I am getting there. I set goals for myself, like not live on my laptop in my room and to get fit and I can happily say I have accomplished part of that. Even just accomplishing parts of my goals makes me feel better, it makes me see the world how it truly is - not how I imagined it, not dark, cruel and harsh.
I won't be here all the time, probably won't be here most of the time, but anyway... I just wanted to have a small say here, nearly like the old times. Very like the old times, but with much better grammar and hopefully less annoying.
by the way, if you wanna hit me up on tumblr, i am blaver.tumblr.com and my tumblr is a happy place
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